SHAWN -

2011's last.

2011-12-31T00:40:00.006+08:00

i figured that since it's the last day of 2011,
i ought to reflect on the past year, here, where only me and myself would read it.
i did not forget about this blog though, i expected myself to come back sooner or later.

as with many other previous years,
2011 was full of new experiences and discoveries, new beginnings, also unfavourable encounters here and there.
the year i got into a new school and met new friends.

i thought i should look more on the positive things that happened instead of the bad,
so here goes.

JANUARY
(1) olevel results. i was too elated to say anything the moment i saw my results. they were too good to be true in fact. my juniors were even there for me. now it's their turn to receive their results...
(2) Mrs Goh's birthday! it was quite impromptu actually, got a swenson's cake that costs around $40, thinking that it should be something more special for our hard at work form teacher, who relentlessly helped us in our endless maths questions. note to self: never buy from swenson's again. cake was thin, it melted too quickly and it wasnt that good.
(3) 6Love clique gathering. that was the last time we actually gathered. remembered prawning for 2-3 hours but didnt prawn anything. loser for life.
(4) the month where i self-proclaim myself to be a running man fan.

cant think of any memories in february cause i was practically stoning after knowing i got posted to poly, which only started in april.

MARCH
(4) the month where i spammed sara bareilles' music.
(5) IT fair. got my lenovo thinkpad at suntec with zhaorong and jean. had dinner at some taiwan cafe where we got nauseous due to the interior design of the restaurant. good food. went on a separate day with the vball guys and bought pokemon white ._.
(6) student council camp! it was fun planning the night activity (once again) for the juniors. loved the campsite. pep-talks here and there.

APRIL
(7) 1 week before poly started had dinner with the entire f41 clique + extended clique in full attendance. watched a midnight movie with the remaining few who didnt had curfews. was being an uncle by taking advantage of pizza hut coupons.
(8) START OF POLY! the hype was quite high then. signed up for many camps and ccas, but i gave myself a reason that i was too lazy to attend the interviews for the latter, and now i regret. met new and awesome friends. lucky to have them.

MAY
(6) SARA BAREILLES CONCERT with jean. friggin awesome, 'nuff said.
(7) BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION 1: seoul garden with licheng, rafael and ben. everyone else had their own programmes. i was quite sad, but glad that i at least had some company.
(8) BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION 2: karaoke with my orientation group tecktonik6. a pleasant surprise that my SCs bought me a shirt and sang happy birthday to me. the karaoke meetup was the first of the many karaoke sessions we have and will have. i have yet to wear the shirt they gave me cause it was tight-fitting and i didnt have the desirable body shape.
(unfortunately, this year i didnt get to cut or eat a cake.)

JUNE
(9) COMM CAMP + F41 CHALET. my first NP-based camp. had an unpleasant experience and backed out of future camps thereafter. f41 chalet was da bomb.

JULY - AUGUST
not much of happy memories as it was mugging period for exams. spent a whole lot of time with TB03 people though. nearer the exam period i started to frequent starbucks somehow under the influence of classmates. got a starbucks card too. loved it ever since.

SEPTEMBER - OCTOBER
nearly 2 months' worth of holidays. regretted wasting so much time of it.
(10) TCP camp. second camp in NP. an empowerment camp which is much more impactful than all the other such camps i've attended. sadly the aura had died by now.
(11) hairy mama camp. my third and latest NP-based camp. by now a huge group of people have well-bonded over the past several camps which i didnt attend, thus i admitted i felt a little left out. but i'm glad i had my small pool of friends which i am closer to as we bonded through the games lined up. 2nd place for amazing race. damn fun and like running man.
(12) occasional meet-ups with the vball guys. from dinner to cycling trips to trekking to taking the newly opened circle line section. no doubt filled up my calender to a certain extent.
(13) GOT A TWITTER ACCOUNT.
(14) the period where i got down to learning something new: korean!
(15) the period where i was hooked up to adele's music. still am.

NOVEMBER - DECEMBER
common test period and frequented starbucks once again. the time where i didnt go orchard/bugis/places with happy people for nearly a month. the second semester was more stressed than the first. i was already choinging for common test. not exam.

oh, did i mention the tons of failed selections/interviews i've went throughout the year?
wait, this post is supposed to be a positive lookback one.
(16) so yeah, for the whole month of march 2012, i will be at shanghai for an overseas immersion programme. got called up before a tutorial that i was selected and i was ecstatic. finally i was recognised by the school w/o having to scream to get noticed.
(17) wore my sec school uniform to school for the fun of it. initially called the whole class to wear it but only 4 daring ones wore it.
(18) NP got stomped. first it was killer bees, next it was the hoodie and singlet sales. as a true blue singaporean, i managed to queue since 8.30am (when the sale starts at 10) and successfully gotten a grey ngee ann hoodie. (Y)
(k la i actually cut queue, but i deserved the hoodie for sacrificing my sleep)
(19) TB03's sentosa outing after exams. it was fun duh. wore mismatched clothing.
(20) TOMORROW: final gathering with f41 people before jc kids embark on a-level preparations and poly embark of endless tutorials and projects. this time only half-attendance, but it'll still be equally awesome.

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so yeah, 20 memorable events. plus tons of others. couldnt have done this list up without the help of my older blog posts and my tweets. nostalgic mood now! but i promised myself to complete my tutorials before the countdown party later.

cheers to the end of another awesome year and to a fresh new start!

SHAWN -

PS. to future me, if you wanna reminisce certain moments in 2011, here are some songs that you were hooked up to.

2011-10-07T01:25:00.002+08:00

this holiday has been nothing but a waste of precious time and boredom.

what could have been time well spent on "picking up a new skill", "get into shape" and/or "getting a part-time job", as i would've always told myself, is spent into splurging on unnecessary wants and stoning in front of my laptop all day.

i'm so glad the new semester is starting in about a week more.
let's look back.

an update to those die-hard fans who've been waiting for this long-awaited post of mine (which apparently i seriously doubt so, it's a wasteland of data over here),
my last semester's exam results have been average, to me at least.

i got a 3.5 GPA score.
good news! with this score i can happily pack up and go to an overseas university.
with friends scoring 3.8 - 4.0 scores, my mood sunk and i hoped i could have done better.
~~(on the bright side, many are scoring worse than me, due to laziness and the level of seriousness they put into all this shit, so still a tinge of satisfaction to results)~~
#justsaying

and yeah, i finally got a twitter account, which made me less active in facebook.
quite old news actually, but i thought i should tell ol' blogger about my life :)

anyway, so this holiday was kinda sucky.
and i pledged myself not to repeat history.
i has roughly sketched out what i plan to do over the next few semester breaks.
in february - april i could be going back to my alma mater to coach weaker students in their studies as some sort of a CIP,
and in my 2nd year in poly i could have more commitments in school, that i didnt sign up in the first place this year, like the ambassadors.
all for the sake of enriching my CCA cert at the end of my 3 years in NP.

other than the fact that i want to polish and enhance my portfolio,
i would definitely want to continue what i did in secondary school and continue it in NP. I would want my poly life to be colourful and enriching as well you know.

so there, what got me motivated was a workshop i attended a few days ago.
and i really appreciate NP for giving me opportunities to continuously enrich and improve myself.
that's why i'm here posting something out of the blue at 1am in the morning.

on the bright side,
the remaining days of my holiday are spent with my old friends from GM, and the bonding sessions with my poly mates.

hopefully i will be recharged before school starts, more than ever ready to overcome barriers and live life to the fullest.

SHAWN -

2011-08-18T20:14:00.003+08:00

today, my juniors received my o level chinese results.
this time last year, i received mine.
the day when i initially thought it was the end for me when most of my classmates got a pleasant surprise and i got a rude shock instead.

now thinking back,
the rest of my results pulled me back up and i am now here, in ngee ann.
recalling the times that i shed tears, sweat and blood to be where i am today.
i reaped what i sowed.

exams starts tomorrow, with macroeconomics as the first paper.
hoping very hard to score nothing but an A.
good luck to everyone else too taking exams!

SHAWN -

~~15/8 - DSS~~
19/8 - MAEC
20/8 - OB
22/8 - BSTATS
24/8 - BMGMT

Counting down to the end of exams with mixed feelings, as always.

2011-08-18T00:59:00.002+08:00

it's been the longest time since i've ever stepped foot to my own blog.
the first semester in poly is soon-to-be concluding and many many events have come and gone.
what made me come back was that i'm terribly stressed and need a platform to rant to myself.

semestral exams are just around the corner and i'm stressed not mainly because of the GPA i'm gonna get at the end of poly,
but it's the PEER PRESSURE that gets to me every single day.

while one leisurely checks his/her facebook or twitter,
he/she would inevitably find posts regarding about their friends' studying progress.
"finished 4 chapters of this module today! shall take a well-deserved break."
"productive day. could finally understand this concept!"

these occurrences are oh so demoralising.
such a competitive society we live in. you get motivated to work harder through the achievements of others so as not to lose out.

i dread this feeling.
more dreading when you cant get the concept right or get anything inside your head while others do.

SHAWN -

2011-06-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

i dont find myself the natural flair at blogging effectively.
looking through my past blog posts makes me facepalm.
*random thought

SHAWN -

2011-06-22T17:54:00.005+08:00

the past month since i last posted was very hectic.
following my birthday celebrations weekend,
a handful of projects were due one day after another.
all of us were quite stressed i suppose, but i'm glad it was all over.

then it came the common tests.
procrastination was inevitable,
but i made it and suppose i didnt screw up as much as this time last year.

the following week was all about fun fun fun fun. it's term break already!
gallons and gallons of fun.
how time really gets to us when half a semester is already gone
i relieved my old life with spending 3 fruitful days with f4/1,
followed by having the time of my life (?) in Comm Camp 7 in school.

lots of photos taken, lots of cheering done and much zombie invasion,
if you know what i mean.

but there's always the other side of the coin.
i was forced to face the reality of a true blue poly student during camp so to speak.
i prolly embarrassed and shocked everyone in the room where my bunk was at.
most would forget by now, but it's still haunting me till now.

sad plights aside. it was fun on the whole, the camp and the f4-1 mass gathering.
missing everyone so much.

old friendships strengthened ; new friendships forged.

SHAWN -

2011-05-23T00:29:00.002+08:00

thanks guys for taking time off to celebrate my birthday.
really appreciate it. ♥
i'm seventeen and counting.

SHAWN -

2011-05-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

it seems that it's always this time of the year that i get ironically downcast.
i get paranoid,
i get pessimistic,
and my self-esteem drops to an all time low.

every single year, i look back at all the similar events.
one word to describe my feeling would be jealously.
jealous of how blessed other people can be and i cant seem to get what they have.

and i dont think i'm being paranoid, perhaps it's the truth that i just cant seem to want the things i desire.

but am i too shameless to ask for so much?
it only happens once a year when one feels extra special and especially happy.
"maybe next year, i'll get what i want."
that's what i say every year, but it never happens.

SHAWN -

2011-05-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

the five biggest regrets after attending my first ever concert:
(1) by being so guai by adhering to the sistic rules of "no photography".
(2) by not bringing my camera.
(3) by not being able to take clear videos (i.e not bringing camera)
(4) by not being able to take clear shots at sara (i.e not bringing camera)
(5) by not bringing my camera.

painfully enough, everyone around us (Jean and I) were armed with DSLRs and iphone4s.
busily snapping away shots, filming away our idol in action.
i had to rely on my pathetic iphone3G camera.

nevertheless it was awesome.
awesomeness beyond measure.
too awesome to even just describing it as awesome.

sara bareilles no doubt brought the house to complete mayhem whenever she starts another number or making the endless sacarstic remarks.
her live performance was just. so. good.

sara earned two hardcore fans overnight.

this was probably the nearest and clearest shot i got from my phone during the autograph session. (didnt get a signature either cause i did not have a poster)

her smile is gorgeous.
she's just simply beautiful.

SHAWN -

2011-04-30T12:50:00.002+08:00

it's high time i paid homage to this blog.
so school's started and orientation ended last week.
i admit that there was so much fun and high-ness...
until i was down with a bad headache and a coarse voice on good friday.

my class has been fine.
just fine.
no enemies yet, and i hope i wont have any.

tutorials and lectures so far have been interesting,
maybe it's due to the high relevance of everyday life.
planning to be a good boy and complete my work over the weekend.

i think the one thing that one needs to overcome upon entering poly is to step out of his/her's comfort zone.
you get to meet different people from your secondary school and you gotta blend in.
you ought to try out new interests and do something that you'll dont normally do.

still trying very, very hard to be accustomed to poly life.
hope things will turn out the way i want soon.

SHAWN -

2011-04-15T01:40:00.002+08:00

SHAWN - says:
*i partly chose - also because peeps are more friendly and more 'lively'

Senior says:
*hehe friendly?
*depends man.
*its friendly 'on the front'.

SHAWN - says:
*what you mean by that

Senior says:
*once school start for about a sem.
*you'll know.
*heard stuff about BS people being backstabber, or whatsoever.
*but as for my course.
*so far can say almost everyone are super hardworking and friendly
--
*nah! dont worry
*all freshies are really ncie.
*just that over the time
*with projects, and quarrels in between groups.
*then conflicts may occur, sure will happen one
*you know when in a project
*you work with 3 or 4 other people
*who have their own sets of thinking
*and personalities
*its really difficult to avoid conflicts
*its how you recover from those conflicts that matters most.

there i was talking to a senior whom i never met before in my life,
let alone meeting each other physically.
i guess it's inevitable that we'll get to see the "ugly" side of something once we're in it.

i really appreciated the senior who gave me some pointers beforehand.
but for now, i'll only trust the people i know.

SHAWN -

2011-04-10T15:05:00.001+08:00

how i wish i could spend another year again with everyone.

SHAWN -

2011-04-01T01:09:00.001+08:00

18 MORE DAYS !
and true enough, if music didnt exist, life would be a mistake.

SHAWN -

2011-03-20T00:16:00.003+08:00

another week has concluded.
another week down, and a month left till school starts.

i had a superb time spending time with the council and my friends again.
an indirect walk down memory lane i suppose?

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awesome song that i would like to share:

SHAWN -

2011-03-09T01:08:00.000+08:00

SHAWN -

2011-03-06T14:43:00.002+08:00

I'M GOING TO SARA BAREILLES' CONCERT IN MAY !
and it's prolly my first time going to one with friends.
well, a friend actually. (:
cant get good seats though, but i guess it's better than not getting at all!
sara's awesome, cant wait to see her perform. xD

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i'm finally gonna get a little busy this week.
and time's inching closer to school!
going for a council camp on the weekend,
and going IT fair and the school's roadshow on thursday and friday.
not to mention enrolment stuff on wednesday.

currently having a dilemma of choosing the right notebook.
i'm eyeing for the thinkpad edge :

which is awesome because it's a thinkpad and it's sleek in its design.
but it's not offered under the school's roadshow, which leads to another dilemma as to whether i should buy one from school or outside.

sigh. so vexed, but i'm so excited.

SHAWN -

2011-02-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

there isnt a day that passes by without me thinking whether my choice of poly was right.

apparently i'm deeply influenced by the social life of my jc friends.

april seems 2 years from now.

feeling impatient and desperate to get out of this torture. D:

SHAWN -

2011-02-15T23:49:00.003+08:00

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SHAWN -

2011-01-30T00:49:00.003+08:00

i'm officially a running man fan.
well, i actually got introduced to it a few months ago by a hardcore kpop fan.
today i watched the remaining 5-6-odd videos i last stopped to kill time.
it's also the first variety show that i ever lol-ed literally throughout the show. (:

somehow, it's also discouraging to watch cause they're having such a fun time,
while i'm lazing around and rotting away at home.
feeling so pathetic. -.-

SHAWN -

2011-01-28T00:46:00.002+08:00

one thing bad about poly is that there's still 2+ months before orientation kicks in.
2+ months is a really long time.
cant they just start now or something?

i rather be over-stressed and depriving of sleep than be doing nothing at all.
and also to get all pessimistic and emotional and stuff without anyone to talk to.
jc friends started school yesterday.
i missed their presence and companion already.

this feeling sucks. ):
(yes i'm trying to get a job, but SOMEONE'S stopping me from it, which makes me even more dejected.)

SHAWN -

2011-01-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

got into ngee ann's business studies, my first choice.
yes i'm happy.
but the fact that school only starts in april and by what just happened to me,
i'm crushed emotionally.

i want to grab a listening ear, but i realise i havent got anyone to hear me out.
anyone even reading this?

SHAWN -

2011-01-19T01:00:00.002+08:00

looking at old videos taken since from 4 years ago really brings back memories.
those friends that i've made and lost.
the laughter and the jokes shared.

the past 4 years in GM was indeed fruitful and enjoyable.
though i may not relive them again, but at least those moments were recorded and kept.
i deeply miss everything.

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last week was a crucial period to choose my destiny, so to speak.
it was a freaking 5 short days to choose jc or poly.
even if poly, what course.
much thinking and frustration finally led me to my choice of ngee ann's business studies.
i realised that mass comm wasnt actually what the course i wanted.

so now i'm waiting for the posting results,
and it's still probably gonna be a long, long holiday.

SHAWN -

2011-01-10T21:12:00.002+08:00

English - B3
E Maths - A1
A Maths - C6
Physics - C6
Chemistry - B4
Comb Humans - D7
Literature - C6

these prelim grades were never seen again.

today was the release of the results, THE results.
and all i can was i'm very, very satisfied and i'm happy that i made it.
not only my grades exceeded my own expectations,
i am able to go in the course that i want merit-wise.

quite shocking initially and i was flabbergasted.
some grades were unbelievable and i had to reconfirm whether the results were mine.
i practically hugged all the teachers who have taught me. :3

no A1s, but everything else was A2s and B3s! :D (with the exception of chinese of course)
and i'm still in disbelief.
thank you to all the teachers whom have taught me!
(:

SHAWN -

2010-12-31T20:29:00.003+08:00

room's painted,
new furniture bought,
and i'm more or less ready to usher in the new year.
the green hue brightens up the room and i've cleared many unwanted stuff.
that's pretty much what i've been doing for the past week.

and in a matter of hours,
2011 comes knocking at our doors.
reflecting 2010,
it has been yet another year of ups and downs.
it was a good mix of laughter and troubles.
i've finally conquered o levels and i'm moving on to the next phase in life.

my resolutions for 2011:
(1) to focus more on studies.
(2) to be more optimistic.
(3) to take the first step instead of waiting for someone to.

a decade has come to an end.

SHAWN -

2010-12-25T23:50:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone ! (:

it's been a long time since i've dropped by,
but i guess no one's reading this anyway.

work has finally come to and end and i'm quite relieved and sad at the same time.
great friends i've made during my tenure at taka.

Yong Xu, Phyllis, Beauford, Qiao Min, Shi Jia, Fangyi,
Ha Wee, Rachel, Sean, Jotham and Maxwen.

now i'm jobless and i'm at risk of dying of boredom.
that's the sad part.

no matter,
during this period of time to my results,
i'm planning to do room improvements and spring cleaning,
starting with my wall.
giving it a fresh new coat of paint on Monday.
finally probably something to blog about. :D

anyway, this year's christmas was poorly spent.
ironically, this morning i went to the temple for my grandmother's death anniversary
(the chinese calender date falls today this year)
and afterwhich we "on the way" went to another temple.
then i stoned at home cause i was tired cause i wasnt used to wake up at 11am. -_-

however, had a good time spending with colin as we walked miles yesterday.
started off at orchard and walked down the shopping belt to esplanade, then MBS.
we felt like tourists for a night, only that we didnt spent a single cent.

i started to miss school.

SHAWN -

2010-12-05T00:40:00.002+08:00

working at takashimaya so far gives me so much mixed feelings.
i think it's already 3 weeks on and sometimes i just feel like quitting,
or maybe i feel like just doing my job alone.

my partner happens to be "backstabbing" me on facebook,
when i am his friend and i can see everything he posts.
probably he's annoyed that i'm ALWAYS late for work,
and yet he silently resents it and probably hurls vulgarities at me behind my back literally.
well, he got his flaws too and i wished he would just stop working, just like he threatened in his post.

(1) everytime i come to work, the station is always such a mess and he doesnt even organise.
(2) he doesnt replenish the stock when they're just in a cupboard at the bottom shelf.
(3) he occasionally goes out to smoke (which i dislike since he always comes back with a 烟味)

additionally, i have colleagues which i dont know whether they've been putting a fake front and they're actually on my partner's side.
(but i do have some colleagues who are genuinely caring and are nice people. (: )

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other than that,
another thing that annoys me is the STORE.
my stock are always shifted here and there daily,
as though a daily hurricane hits the area.

once, my stock are all over the place cause they were moving out 2 counters.
my stock just nice were on top of those.
and one night they just threw my stock all over the place,
take the counters,
and never put back my stuff.

the store has stock from all the various departments.

and those "upstairs" people also kept lamenting and complaining how disorganised the store is.

being an organised person,
i always organise my stock so that whatever i want to take i can retrieve it easily.
the fucking irritating part is that every other day my storage space either gets reduced or altered by some friggin' people who are ignorant and selfish.
plus my stock arent easy to get.

this is the pain i have to go through everytime i come to work.

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at least the fair is ending in about 18 days.
after which i would finally get the hell outta there.
there, i probably ranted everything out.
-yawns-

tired, tired, tired.
SHAWN -

2010-11-26T21:52:00.003+08:00

i know it's long overdue,
but PROM NIGHT was AWESOME.
... to a large extent that is.

partly because the table i was sitting was super sway.
out of probably 50 lucky draws, our table got drawn once only.
the biggest prize was an iPad ! )))):

well anyway, it was generally a sentimental event.
believe it or not, the end of a long journey has finally arrived.
somehow i would dearly miss the lessons, the friends and teachers in GM.
probably i'll not experience the mundane and stressful school life anymore.

and that's it.
the next time we would all meet again would be results day.
strangely, i cant wait for the day to come !

SHAWN -
PS: this day 4 years ago, this blog was created. i'm glad it survived this far ! :3

2010-11-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

feeling so f-ed up and irritated now.
maybe i'm just envious of everyone else.
looking at myself in the mirror can be such a difficult thing to do.
sigh.

ANYWAY, i know i'm fugly. -_-
work at taka is super tiring.
friday was my off day but i went back to school to help in council stuff.
and in about 8 hours i gotta wake up and work again.

so this is work.
mundane and tiring and dreadful.
probably it's much better than lazing around at home anyway.

and maybe to shun away from all the commotion going on after the o levels.

SHAWN -

2010-11-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

i shouldnt be here but i'm here anyway.
just had a class bbq today (monday) at east coast !
it was fun and all and i would really miss all the times we had in F4/1 in school.

didnt took any photos from my own camera cause i was too busy barbecuing/playing.

my week is fully PACKED.
tomorrow till sunday, i'm back to takashimaya again.
but i'm still awake now cause i gotta do some student council stuff.
you might be asking why am i still doing it when i've graduated.
it's more of a "voluntary" job rather.
and i'm risking my life by burning the midnight oil.

seems to me the busy-ness and stress level's no diff from o level period.
at least i won't be bored.
i probably just need adequate hours of sleep and rest.

i'll come back when i manage to go through each day alive.

PROM NIGHT : 22ND NOVEMBER.

SHAWN -

2010-11-13T21:13:00.003+08:00

251010 - English Paper 1 & 2
261010 - E Maths Paper 1
271010 - E Maths Paper 2
281010 - A Maths Paper 1
291010 - A Maths Paper 2 & Chemistry Paper 2
011110 - Literature Paper 1 & 2 & Physics Paper 2
021110 - Geography Paper
081110 - Social Studies Paper
111110 - Physics Paper 1
121110 - Chemistry Paper 1

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i know it's kinda late, but HOORAY.
O LEVELS ARE OVER.
and come to think 10 years in GM has just passed.
probably as well as schooling days.
cant believe i've grown up and moving on to the next stage in life.

though such a huge load has been taken off my shoulders,
i'm now tied down with the class bbq stuff and doing something else again in the sc.
well, at least it's better than to do nothing all day.

i still dont know what to do during this 2 months,
other than working at taka again, this time from next tues to 23rd december.
there's actually so many things to do! ughh.
like picking up a new skill? (:

anyway, cycled today,
but didnt cycled to changi this time.
still quite tired now.
i should hibernate until the results day to eradicate the cruel waiting.

CLASS BBQ ON MONDAY !
WE'VE WON THE CLASS MODAL AWARD. 250 BUCKS.
WOOOOOOOOOOOO

SHAWN -

2010-11-02T18:37:00.002+08:00

251010 - English Paper 1 & 2
261010 - E Maths Paper 1
271010 - E Maths Paper 2
281010 - A Maths Paper 1
291010 - A Maths Paper 2 & Chemistry Paper 2
011110 - Literature Paper 1 & 2 & Physics Paper 2
021110 - Geography Paper
081110 - Social Studies Paper
111110 - Physics Paper 1
121110 - Chemistry Paper 1

--

WHOOSH.
THREE MORE PAPERS.
and i cant believe i already made through it this far.

subjects that i DONT look forward to know my results so far:
english and literature.
probably i freaked out for english as it was the first day of exams.
studied only about an hour or so for lit,
so studied crap and probably produced crap.

whatever it is they're over.
just hafta wait and see the rest of the results next year.
looking forward to class bbq on 15th.

now i have about one more week to study ss and my two sciences.
cant imagine how bored i would be after the last paper. O:

until then!
SHAWN -

2010-10-11T18:54:00.003+08:00

2010-10-06T18:32:00.004+08:00

18 more days.

recently i've been imagining what would be like after the exams.
i have like 2.5 months to spend on before the results.
other than working, i just might do several other stuff...

as d-day approaches by the second,
i realise that they're several kinds of people in my class.

one, are those latecomers.
i'm one of the guilty ones.
welllll, i'm not exactly late, i step into the school when the bell rings.
probably those latecomers have been working quite hard throughout the night.
-coughs-

two, people who are disorganised.
i dont know if it's just me,
but i dont understand why people just cant get organised to increase efficiency.
for example, today we're instructed to take out a comprehension worksheet,
and at a glance several, if not many people are rummaging through 10cm-thick papers,
hoping to find that single piece of paper soon enough.
eventually one of them spent about 5-10 minutes searching for it,
in the end it was probably at home.

... mabye i'm too organised.
i buy files to nicely file up all my worksheets.
and organise those worksheets again into chapters/topics.
everyday after arriving home from school,
the first thing i'll do before i plunge into my homework is to ORGANISE.
I would be transferring some worksheets here and there,
filing up cleared assignements into the respective subject files,
and then i'll start my work.

three, people who pon school to mug at home.
these happenings somehow affects me to a certain extent.
somehow i dont know if it's just me again,
but shouldnt they spare a thought for the teachers?
i dont know, but really.
teachers sacrifice their time and life to cater to our endless questions and queries.
they prepare for us other schools' papers/tests and make the effort to go through them during lessons,
so that we realise our mistakes and do our best in the exams.
and the worse part is that they commit this every year to the graduating students.
think about it, if you being guilty, reading this.

mabye i'm just being too senstitive. hah.
but that's how i feel currently.

meanwhile,
i can feel a slight improvement in my weaker subjects.
amaths mock paper 1 today was not much of a great challenge, as compared to prelim.
if i keep this up,
i would be able to meet my expectations. (:

i just want to score my best: i dont have to be the best.
SHAWN -

2010-09-30T21:18:00.003+08:00

10 THINGS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

(1) Nothing but studies on my mind.

(2) Sleeping at 12 - 1am to complete assignments.

(3) A whole pile of work to be done, and extra work to improve myself.

(4) Waking up freaking early to get to school.

(5) Reaching to school on the dot at 7.25am
(on the other hand i used to reach school at about 6.45am in sec1)

(6) Spamming TYS MCQs (so far only)

(7) Stay in school to complete work, since I cant get anything much done at home until recently

(8) Watch Glee as a weekly dose of relaxation time.

(9) Worry and frus about the subjects that i gotta pull up my socks in.

(10) Waiting for the impending doom that's gonna fall upon me in 3/4 weeks.

SHAWN -

2010-09-23T20:51:00.002+08:00

well, today was result slip day.
i cant say i'm satisfied, cause apparently it sucked big time,
but i'm surprisingly calm and still happy.

probably i feel the results need not bother me now.
that was prelims, and i did not put in my best.
now is O Levels, with about 30 more days to go,
it's my turn to shine.

you know,
i'm gonna look back to this preparation period ,
and recall all the sweat, blood and tears that i've exchanged for my future.
and i'm gonna smile and ask myself what if i didnt work hard.

somehow, i'm actually truly lucky to be in singapore.
the education system is there to... what else, to educate us.
but having an efficient and sustainable system, now that's truly amazing.

meanwhile,
i've begun to cherish my last weeks in GM as well.
cause i'll know i'll leave her with a tearful goodbye.
the teachers, the classmates and schoolmates.
they undoubtedly make up 4 years of my teenage-hood.

SHAWN -

2010-09-18T13:12:00.002+08:00

it's about 36 more days.
am i really belittling myself?
am i being too realistic?

mabye i should configure my frame of mind again.

SHAWN -

2010-09-13T20:27:00.005+08:00

seems like there's a lot of things in my head now that i wanna blog in this post,
but i'm quite "drained" from today.
it's the first day of term4 and my brain is already hurting, literally.

what supposed to be a power nap of an hour ended up a 4 hour sleeping marathon.
it was good though, but some obnoxious things happened during my deep sleep.
and you dont wanna know.

anyway,
the final 40+ days opens up with, of course, prelims feedback.
i've gotten almost all the papers back today,
except ss and lit.

i'm just happy that i've improved in grade for all the subjects so far,
but it just isnt enough to secure the aggregate that i want.
so it's 再接再厉 or for worse.
and i seriously gotta stop comparisons with people.
cant you just put it down just a little? :/

on a lighter note,
i was 'hired' to be the emcee for the graduating ceremony next friday.
i'm taking the job since it would most likely be the last thing i can do in GM.

SHAWN -
perservere, it's 41 days left.

2010-09-06T22:26:00.002+08:00

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this widget is supposed to be counting down for a holiday.
but anyway,
i had not realised it has already surpassed the 50 day mark until now.
48 days.
oh, the horror.

as such, i won't be updating much often now.

SHAWN -

2010-09-03T22:03:00.002+08:00

040810 - English Paper 1 & 2
050810 - SS & E Maths Paper 1
110810 - Physics Paper 1 & 2 & E Maths Paper 2
120810 - Literature Paper 1
130810 - O Level EL Oral
260810 - A Maths Paper 1 & Literature Paper 2
270810 - Geography & A Maths Paper 2
(300810 - Chinese Paper 1 & 2)
020910 - Chemistry Paper 1 & 2

my goals i wanna achieve this september holidays:
(1) Do an E/A Maths paper everyday.
(2) Drill on weak subjects. (Physics, Literature, A Maths)
(3) Stop procrastinating and start working, gosh its less than 2 months left.
(4) Stop comparisons with people, cause it'll only make myself useless.
(5) Finish the final lap with no regrets.

i must say i'm quite happy with my baby-step progress (sort of).
i've completely eradicated all those mindless facebook and iphone games,
cause i dont see why it'll kill your life if you dont water your earth, you dont give food to your employees, or you dont collect your "harvests".
and, i've begin to utilise my computer less often now,
given the fact that it's no time to lose or spare.

meanwhile,
to keep me away from these distractions,
i'm having more and more study appointments than ever. (i shouldnt label them as 'dates')
and that's great.

SHAWN -

2010-08-28T12:46:00.003+08:00

4 years in the making.
it has come to a glorious end.
i entered the prefectorial board and stepped down the student council.

no doubt this tenure has been a fruitful and thought-provoking one.
all the laughs and tears in this school are mostly constituted in this board/council.
the sec2s/sec3s did a marvellous job in planning this ROD,
and I am indeed proud of you guys for making it thus far. (:

time really flies and i've witnessed batch after batch graduating.
i didnt have time to realise that it's my batch's turn to be next.
i can say it was the most emotional ROD i've had,
though i almost shedded some, someone else shedded the most, right? xD

once again, thank you very much to all the juniors, teachers and peers for this wonderful stay in the GMPB as well as in the GMSC.

--

040810 - English Paper 1 & 2
050810 - SS & E Maths Paper 1
110810 - Physics Paper 1 & 2 & E Maths Paper 2
120810 - Literature Paper 1
130810 - O Level EL Oral
260810 - A Maths Paper 1 & Literature Paper 2
270810 - Geography & A Maths Paper 2
(300810 - Chinese Paper 1 & 2)
020910 - Chemistry Paper 1 & 2

1 more subject to go !
then it's full engine till 12th november.

SHAWN -

2010-08-20T16:03:00.001+08:00

Another setback sets in.
As anticipated or rather expected, I did not pass the DPA interview.
On the contrary, I am neither disappointed nor okay with it.
Come on, I put in so much shit into this,
Spanning this topic for many posts and months now,
And it all comes down to this.
So much for enthusiasm and being optimistic.

Of course I shouldn't let this setback affect me.
I shouldn't brood over this anymore.
I shouldn't be jealous of others successfully getting theirs.
Because now, I SHOULD work towards my goal:
Getting into Media & Communications , through merit.

I will choose my future, and not it chooses me.

SHAWN -

2010-08-18T16:56:00.003+08:00

if i aint wrong,
i once said that if i get a C for chinese,
i would retake the subject.

but now i come to realise, it isnt necessary.

if your inference skills are that bad,
i had actually in fact got an ugly C.
friends and peers got A1s to B3s,
and i got a C.

until now,
i still could not believe it.
not even huang lao shi.
i was very very stunned the moment the grade was announced.

i tried to mantain composure,
my mind whirlling with endless thoughts.
i put my head down and controlled my emotions,
until huang lao shi came over and massaged my back.

that really hit the waterworks.

i was the only one out of 2 people in the class to drop a grade as compared to MYE.
huang lao shi said i was too stressed and the inability to perform well under exam conditions.
which i feel it's not true.
what could've pulled my grades down?

listening comprehension i could 95% confirm i got a 16/20.
oral i screwed up my convo, though i did okay with reading, which explains the merit.
paper 1 was fine, i could remember i memorised some good phrases and verbs.
paper 2. i had once said it was easier than expected.

mabye the problem had lied in paper2.
我真的很不甘愿。
because i couldnt possibly score that lousy.
come on, i cant believe the grade myself !
that was why i decided to pay money to view my script.
if i really do get the C, i have nothing else to say.

--

currently i am calm and trying to get used to the grade.
because i have tried my best and this is what i get on my report card.
(unless it is really marked wrongly)

of course i was super disappointed with myself after the initial results release.
couldnt concentrate on english and chem lessons.
but now, instead of demoralising me further,
it has given me an additional boost of motivation to work harder for the remaining subjects.

i do not need chinese for my L1R4 anyway,
and retaking it would only add up another load of stress for the big Os.
the only thing i would want to do now is to view my paper,
to clear my doubts about the grade that was given.
so what's done cannot be undone,
and it's no use brooding about the past.

i am not gonna care if people jump 4 or 5 grades up anymore.
though i dont really believe in horoscopes,
i happen to randomly check mine yesterday.

and it now serves as an encouragment to me nevertheless.

Different people measure success by different scales.
You shouldnt get discouraged if your accomplishment today seems small compared to what others have done in the same period.
Comparisons will make it difficult for you to feel like you're getting anywhere.
Someone else will always do more.
Be content with what you do today, even if it's something simple.

--

though these few days i might still be a little low due to people talking about the results,
DPA results, in or not,
i WILL still score well for o levels and get into the course i want.

history will not repeat itself and nothing is impossible.

SHAWN -

2010-08-16T19:31:00.002+08:00

040810 - English Paper 1 & 2
050810 - SS & E Maths Paper 1
110810 - Physics Paper 1 & 2 & E Maths Paper 2
120810 - Literature Paper 1
130810 - O Level EL Oral
260810 - A Maths Paper 1 & Literature Paper 2
270810 - Geography & A Maths Paper 2
(300810 - Chinese Paper 1 & 2)
020910 - Chemistry Paper 1 & 2

--

oral on friday was fine.
could've scored higher.
(1) the examiner asked if i had anything else to say.
knowing i have something else to say, i said NO.
(2) "what makes you laugh?"
i forgot to mention my favourite comedy series "the noose",
and i uttered crap.

at least i think my reading would score. (:
ahhh,
the people today got an easy conversation topic. ):

anyway,
some spine-tingling and nervous news to await.
WEDNESDAY'S THE CHINESE O LEVEL RESULTS !!!
FRIDAY'S THE DPA RESULTS!!!

ugh.
i shall not anticipate so much for friday.
because i seriously dont think i stand a good chance.
hmmm.

wednesday's the more important one.
prelims resume next week.
choinging for the second last lap !

SHAWN -

2010-08-12T16:09:00.002+08:00

040810 - English Paper 1 & 2
050810 - SS & E Maths Paper 1
110810 - Physics Paper 1 & 2 & E Maths Paper 2
120810 - Literature Paper 1
130810 - O Level EL Oral
260810 - A Maths Paper 1 & Literature Paper 2
270810 - Geography & A Maths Paper 2
(300810 - Chinese Paper 1 & 2)
020910 - Chemistry Paper 1 & 2

--

ughh.
it cant get any worse than this.
i screwed up physics and literature, again.
):

and yet i made some effort to study literature properly for once ...

SHAWN -

2010-08-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

i felt great today after studying with nicole, keefe and colin.
it's national day but what the heck !
though i missed the fireworks and the telecast,
there's always a repeat.
and YOG sure have fireworks de la. :P

my motivation to study still lingers in the air.
studying later and will finish physics and literature revision ASAP ! xD

HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE !

SHAWN -

2010-08-06T21:03:00.004+08:00

040810 - English Paper 1 & 2
050810 - SS & E Maths Paper 1
110810 - Physics Paper 1 & 2 & E Maths Paper 2
120810 - Literature Paper 1
260810 - A Maths Paper 1 & Literature Paper 2
270810 - Geography & A Maths Paper 2
(300810 - Chinese Paper 1 & 2)
020910 - Chemistry Paper 1 & 2

ss paper was crap.
enough said.

--

outing after national day celebrations rocked.
some reward after 2 days of prelims, somehow.
(celebrations was partially fail, as usual all the same problems with the school -)
went out with 11 other people.

Gabriel, Nathan, Jason, ZhiHao, ZiChao, Zhaorong, Andy, Colin,
Jasmine, Deborah, Renee.

first, was gonna have lunch at ASTONS at cathay.
BUT the queueing time was slow and we had a movie to catch.
so we walked back to kopitiam/hk cafe @ plaza sing.
walked to cathay and managed to be on time for SALT.

recommended only if you like action-packed stuff.
it's just basically angelina jolie killing people and escaping from police.
yes.

after that went for SINGAPORE FLYER.
at an attractive student price for 10 bucks.
many first-timers among us,
so i guess its appropriate to go there.

and it's a 4-day break for all of us.
meanwhile,
studying for physics, emaths and literature is essential.

SHAWN -

2010-08-04T15:33:00.002+08:00

~~040810 - English Paper 1 & 2~~
050810 - SS & E Maths Paper 1
110810 - Physics Paper 1 & 2
120810 - Literature Paper 1
260810 - A Maths Paper 1 & Literature Paper 2
270810 - Geography & A Maths Paper 2
(300810 - Chinese Paper 1 & 2)
020910 - Chemistry Paper 1 & 2

--

the comprehension paper sucked.
chim + long passage which i almost dont understand it at all.
and it's the horrifying paper tomorrow - SOCIAL STUDIES.

dont you think the mid-years had just ended not long ago?

on the bright side,
we'll be doing our o levels in comfort come october/november.
cause the school's installing air-con in the hall ! xD
so exams are kinda like in the classrooms now.
thankfully the weather's cool today.

off to choing ss, if i ever.

SHAWN -

2010-07-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

"am i really sure of getting into a poly?"
i cannot believe that i'm asking myself this question at this point of time.

i had a good 2 hours of DPA written test + interview just now.
after what the teachers/lecturers has shared about the course,
i'm slightly more reserved again.
the 30 minute train ride back to school was filled with endless thoughts.

anyway, the new friends i made at first impression, are an awesome bunch of people.
2 malay girls, 1 sec5 guy, and 1 head prefect.
i can remember their names now !
Jeremiah, Justin, Sakina, Nazurah.
HAHHAHAHHAA.
the only downside is they're ALL from DRAMA CLUB.

oh, the horror.

i couldnt keep up with their enthusiasm level,
but i somehow blended in with them after talking to each other.
(this is probably a confession)

--

i'll probably miss secondary school life, a lot.
just by being at the huge campus already makes me miss GM, as though i've already graduated.
it served as an important reminder to me now to cherish the last months i have left.
the teachers and juniors, everything.

anyway the interview didnt go that well, but neither did i screw up.
i'll just have to see the results on 20th august. (that's like a super long wait)
meanwhile, i guess i have to focus on my prelims.
english papers start next wednesday.
some didnt even realise it was that near.
oh, and english oral on the 13th.

oh, the horror.

SHAWN -

2010-07-23T23:46:00.004+08:00

and as usual another week has ended before we know it.
it's still the usual business, stressfulness, and the slacking.
although something delightful happened later on.

it was probably monday/tuesday that schoolmates were announcing their triumph of getting an email from polys of being shortlisted for an interview.
this was getting me pretty nervous for i have not received anything at all as yet.

then,
tuesday passed, wednesday passed.
nothing.
only more people got shortlisted except me.

until on thursday, when i had almost wanted to submit to the fact that i am not shortlisted for any interview, it finally came.

i was doing my chemistry test during remedial when my phone vibrated.
i fished it out and looked at the caller ID.
some random number.
initially i was thinking whether the poly people has called.
i didnt answer la apparently, so i called back after the test.
no answer.

at that point of time i was a tad disppointed.
after checking emails oh-so-frequently for the past week and nothing was generated.
so i continued to patiently wait.

until it was in the evening when the student council investiture rehearsal, my phone vibrated again.
it was from singapore poly and she informed me that i was shortlisted for an interview next friday.

initially,
i was super damn happy.
then, i thought "singapore poly?"
bummer, i had wanted ngee ann.
but it's definitely better than not getting at all.

so, i'm kinda relieved now that i'm shortlisted.
but the interview's the one that's hard to go through.
so i appeal to those who have not got their mails,
there's still time, be patient ! :)

SHAWN -

2010-07-17T12:28:00.003+08:00

prelims are in about 2 weeks and school seems to be more of my second home.
i realised if i were to stay for night study,
i would've spent 15 hours outside daily, of which about 14 hours in school, studying.

i can bet many people are feeing the stress and anxiety about prelims.
not only it stretches all over the month of august,
ending school at about 4.45pm everyday is the norm.
and after that, we go out for dinner,
and back to school again for night study.

it's undoubtly exhausting but i guess it's beneficial to us when we look back.
we look back and see how much shit we've did to strive our goals.
and to finish the final lap after what 10 years of education have taught us.
we should not let our teachers down,
and most crucially we should not disppoint ourselves.

thoughts of dropping subjects have been crossing my mind.
for example, literature and amaths.
it was probably irked after monday.
but come to think of it,
i've been studying those subjects for 1 1/2 years,
and i am just gonna give them up halfway?
i feel i just didnt put enough effort in my studies,
that's why i'm scoring badly and not to my personal standards.

that's why i also feel that all of us should perservere on to the very end.
just 4 more months.
and we'll go wild and burn away our textbooks and rejoice.

SHAWN -

2010-07-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

today wasnt a good day to start off the week.

you could say i had an emotional breakdown.

laugh all you want saying that i'm gay or what but i dont care.
because i'm sure YOU have your ups and downs as well.
basically i was even more pressurised by the environment i'm studying on.
i freaked out yet again for not getting a maths concept right,
and a lit excerpt which i dont know what the hell it is about.

mabye its true that i mantain high expectations for myself.
mabye its also true i'm thinking too much again.

...

today just isnt a good day.

SHAWN -

2010-07-09T23:19:00.002+08:00

PRELIMS PRELIMS PRELIMS.

040810 - English Paper 1 & 2
050810 - SS & E Maths Paper 1
110810 - Physics Paper 1 & 2
120810 - Literature Paper 1
260810 - A Maths Paper 1 & Literature Paper 2
270810 - Geography & A Maths Paper 2
(300810 - Chinese Paper 1 & 2)
020910 - Chemistry Paper 1 & 2

it's kinda extended throughout the month.
with breaks in between due to national day celebrations, YOG and teachers' day celebrations.

i can feel the horror of o levels now.
i'll be doomed for sure if my DPA fails and my L1R4/5 sucks.
i've just finished my draft of the application,
now seeking teachers for vetting before submitting.

most of us had a tough week,
and i'm relieved it's the weekends again to recuperate.
mass pe and pe lesson for the past 2 days made my muscles hurt.
furthermore the weather's been so friggin hot as always that i can even perspire in class.
oh well, i've to get a hang of this.
because it's the final stretch and i seize any chance avaliable to keep me studying.
currently there are many homework to be completed,
and i will try to discipline myself to do most of them tomorrow.

the prelim dates are staring at me now.
the days are numbered, so are o levels.
jia you and carpe diem!

SHAWN -

2010-07-03T12:27:00.004+08:00

grew tired easily for the past 2 nights.
slept as early as 10+pm.
weekends are here and there's an additional monday off due to youth day.
somehow school is better now rather than staying at home.

since the council camp has ended,
the upcoming events includes the 2nd council investiture and our ROD.
finally, our ROD.
the sec4/5s job are basically advising and guiding.
it's a relief that we've 上神台了。 (is that how we say it?)
at the same time a tinge of sadness still lingers in me...

speaking of chinese,
i just had my chinese o level oral 2 days ago.
screwed it up totally.

anyway,
some quick to-do stuff for today (if i ever discipline myself to commit):
(1) E Maths Papers
(2) A Maths Papers
(3) Highlight those good el phrases from newspaper articles
(4) Read Venice and mabye Kalimantan (may not even bother)

Venice is a challenge and sometimes a bore to me.
i have decided to drop venice for o levels,
i dont care if the prophet says its coming out this year.
healthcare hasnt come out too yo.

oh, and prelims starts at 4th aug.
from the tentative timetable,
it's extends throughout the month of august and ends at early sept.
it has been pushed forward this year,
in order to have more time to study for the actual o levels.
but which means lesser time to study for prelims, apparently.

on the bright side,
DPA applications start in 5 days. (:

SHAWN -

2010-06-29T19:53:00.002+08:00

i FINALLY changed my blogskin after a whole year.
simplicity at its best.

i was challenged by my choice of DPA today.
and i was reminded again of the cruel memory that was supposed to be thrown away.
a self-inflicted cause that still affects me today to some degree.

sigh.

SHAWN -

2010-06-28T18:36:00.002+08:00

i've been dreaming again.
i imagined billions of times how awesome it would be if i had successfully entered Ngee Ann Poly's Mass Communications thru Direct Polytechnic Admission (DPA).

surely miss ho and the teachers want my class especially to get into a JC,
but i've thought it through and i dont want that mundane schooling life again.
after browsing through NP's facilities and features,
i am even more uber excited. (:

DPA applications starts next thurs!
i really dont know whether if i would be successful,
given my MYE results that were disappointing to a certain extent.
i am trying to mentally prepare myself if my application fails.

but isnt it always great to be optimistic. (:

just imagine if one day,
YOU would see me writing a newspaper article on the straits times,
witnessing an advertisement designed by me,
or even better:
watching me reading the news to you at the comfort of your home.
(more likely if i'm less hideous.)

i look ugly at this year's class photo.
wondering if wanna buy them all, since its the last year in GM.

speaking of which,
as much as i look forward to getting a successful application into NP,
i dread the day when we have to graduate and leave GM.
GM has already left me with so many memories, good and bad alike.
from awesome and inspiring teachers, to the friends i've made during my stay.

i guess we dont get the best of both worlds uh?

SHAWN -

2010-06-23T21:26:00.002+08:00

- it ended off with a heart of satisfaction and a sense of great achievement.

it all started when we were first informed of being facilitators for 2 major activities at the student council camp.
estatic at first, the 5 of us started planning, anticipating for the actual day.

and the day finally came,
after so much discussion and briefing,
everything was paid off.
today and yesterday.

i guess it was a double irony for me.
i had looked forward to the treasure hunt yesterday night.
eventually, it screwed up a little,
but generally it went out okay.
the after-effects was that i had reflected why this screwed and that screwed.
i was a little disappointed that we, the seniors couldnt impress the juniors fully.

eventually this morning i woke up with a heavy heart,
trudging heavily to the toilet,
having sleeping at 1am to complete some dumb assignment,
not doing the team-building games today did actually crossed my mind.

and then,
it was a huge success.
every station's game masters knew what to do,
they enjoyed facilitating themselves,
the juniors enjoyed themselves too undoubtedly,
and there were minimal bad situations.
even they were,
i'm proud of myself that i had accepted them calmly and thought of an alternative solution.

the teachers were proud of us seniors that we had done a terrific job.
we did it near-perfect without the assistance of teachers,
other then admin stuff and advice.

seniors,
we have no doubt proved ourselves to be capable leaders,
able to lead, direct, and at the same time have fun.

so i really want to shoutout to everyone who has contributed to this camp,
a big THANK YOU.
(:

SHAWN -

2010-06-18T20:03:00.002+08:00

i am super lethargic today.
i cant get anything done, cant get myself to concentrate.
i am not gonna say "i'm-busy-thats-why-i-havent-blogged-in-awhile",
because i feel i havent been putting out my best.
i'm just lazy, that's all.

i was pretty f-ed up just now when someone told me he has done this homework and that homework, and it was super fun.

if you happen to be reading this (which i doubt so),
i am not blaming you for it or pissed off with you.
but you ought to be proud of yourself.
you are so committed to your studies and homework,
you'll surely get into a good jc.

i was f-ed up because i am simply jealous.
jealous of how and why people like you could fully immense themselves into something that needs to be done.

i would rather spend my typical day, waking up at the break of dawn and head to school, and 12 hours later i'll be back home, tired and sleep-deprived, with homework never ever finishing.

than,

to sleep at 2am everyday and wake up at 12pm, procrastinating and emoing because holidays are always so boring.

yes, it's that time of the year again.
i am so glad school starts next monday for the sec4/5s.
the only place and time where i can motivate and commit myself into studies.

i should not blame this anger of mine into homework like a kid anymore.
i should blame myself instead, isnt it ?
who in fact inflicted this series of emotional distress?
it's a needless answer to say.

i have chemistry and physics three-year-series yet to be TOUCHED AT ALL,
i have 3 sets of english comprehension papers,
i have a literature skit to role-play,
i have practice papers for both emaths and amaths,
i have to revise my humanities badly to avoid failing,
i have to get myself geared up for the final lap.

so what,
take the exams next year?
you wish.

SHAWN -

2010-05-31T17:23:00.002+08:00

lots of things had happened since i last posted.
well, the infrequent blogging has made me lose much interest in it now.
but somehow i still had to continue this story,
channeling through the rest of my life.

a teacher said once said indirectly to me:
once your motor stops, it will be very difficult to start it up again.
so the most you could do is to slow down your motor and not stop it entirely.

and i think i've stopped the motor.
and thus, i am having difficulty starting up again.

Chinese O Levels were just over !
frankly speaking it was easier than i had expected,
but i dont know whether an A is achievable.
so this is what we've put in this last stretch.
after so many years of chinese education ...

the reason why its my last stretch is because i have half the mind to go poly.
seeking teachers for help for DPA with nicole into MASS COMM! :D
well, it aint hurt if i try, so why not i give it a shot? (:

oh, and MYEs are long over,
and results were unexpected.
ABCDEs, you name it, i have it.

things installed for june holidays:
extra lessons this week and last week of school.
oh well,
somehow i'm excited for it.
because it totally beats staying at home and do nothing at all.
and, what more can be thrilling when you could be with your friends everyday? (:

nicole has motivated me to get started on that emaths assessment book the whole level was made to buy.

better start the motor now than not to start at all !

SHAWN -
PS: guess it's time to change the blogskin ...

2010-05-20T23:02:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN A WAY OR ANOTHER! :D

SHAWN -

2010-05-13T19:40:00.002+08:00

290410 - English Papers ; MT LC
300410 - Chinese Papers
060510 - Chemistry Papers
070510 - SS ; EM Paper 1
100510 - Geography ; AM Paper 1
110510 - Literature Paper 1
120510 - EM Paper 2 ; Physics Papers
130510 - AM Paper 2 ; Literature Paper 2

--

it's over.
well,
i dont know if i'll fail or pass.

physics was a total killer.
so was amaths.
and i didnt put my 100% in lit paper.
:/

SHAWN -

2010-05-10T20:44:00.003+08:00

290410 - English Papers ; MT LC
300410 - Chinese Papers
060510 - Chemistry Papers
070510 - SS ; EM Paper 1
100510 - Geography ; AM Paper 1
110510 - Literature Paper 1
120510 - EM Paper 2 ; Physics Papers
130510 - AM Paper 2 ; Literature Paper 2

--

BOTH PAPERS SCREWED. GG.
geography paper not finished,
amaths came out some questions out of the ordinary.
SIGH.

and i havent started revising on mockingbird and im still blogging.
FML.

SHAWN -

2010-05-07T19:12:00.002+08:00

290410 - English Papers ; MT LC
300410 - Chinese Papers
060510 - Chemistry Papers
070510 - SS ; EM Paper 1
100510 - Geography ; AM Paper 1
110510 - Literature Paper 1
120510 - EM Paper 2 ; Physics Papers
130510 - AM Paper 2 ; Literature Paper 2

--

finally, the worst is over.
though i was super disppointed that sri lanka didnt came out.
after all the shit and turmoil i've been through,
it didnt came out.
(and probably people within my radius heard me scolded the f-word)

very devasted initially,
so i did globalisation.
still cant finish the paper though.
last part on reliability did halfway.

and the sec3s could finish it yesterday. -.-

emaths was okay,
generally doable,
but i have made some careless mistakes already.
i got question 1 wrong! haha.

chemistry yesterday was fine.

whatever it is, they are out of my sight for the time being.
i still need to finish re-reading mockingbird,
study geography,
meet miss nonis on monday for physics doubts,
and tackle the amaths practice papers !

...well, mabye i'll just get a break, just tonight. (:

SHAWN -

2010-05-01T20:34:00.001+08:00

290410 - English Papers ; MT LC
300410 - Chinese Papers
060510 - Chemistry Papers
070510 - SS ; EM Paper 1
100510 - Geography ; AM Paper 1
110510 - Literature Paper 1
120510 - EM Paper 2 ; Physics Papers
130510 - AM Paper 2 ; Literature Paper 2

--

the picture above probably depicts what most of us are experiencing.
this "long" weekend's the chance to revise for the rest of the papers.
but i seemed to waste half of it already.
didnt do anything much these 2 days.

apart from that,
i'm quite peeved sometimes about the state of my room.
alot of old books and cd-roms that i wanna get rid off.
additionally my computer files and documents,
are all at a mess.

guess i'm that type of person who cant stand disorganisation. haha.
i need a study partner/group. ):
seems difficult to be studying alone at home. hmmm.

SHAWN -

2010-04-29T18:35:00.003+08:00

MYEs.

~~290410 - English Papers ; MT LC~~
300410 - Chinese Papers
060510 - Chemistry Papers
070510 - SS ; EM Paper 1
100510 - Geography ; AM Paper 1
110510 - Literature Paper 1
120510 - EM Paper 2 ; Physics Papers
130510 - AM Paper 2 ; Literature Paper 2

--

first day and i want it to end already.
today's paper2 was a little challenging i guess.

also first time doing examinations in the hall.
very nervous at first,
then got annoyed that i have to endure the humidness everytime.
though the 2 big fans were installed,
the wind could not reach my seat.
):

hmmm. i need sleep ...

SHAWN -
PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDY SHUTING ! :D

2010-04-25T14:20:00.002+08:00

another week has ended and another monday is approaching.
the past week had been yet another stressful and busy one.
started sleeping at later hours,
and staying in school longer with addition to night study.

somehow my week was rewarded by watching ANIMAL FARM yesterday night.
a local theatre production, it's overall funny and entertaining.
they added some singaporean flavour to it.
hopefully if there are still tixs avaliable, i recommend people to watch it.

after watching 3 such productions over the last 2 months,
i feel that theatre is so cool now. (:

ending here with unfinished homework and unstarted revision for MYEs.

see you next week?

SHAWN -

2010-04-19T18:28:00.005+08:00

sometimes i really feel like quitting blogger.
it's been a very busy year for me,
and i just cant put blogging as a priority in such a case.
i've been like getting used to the thought that blogging is a job for me to do,
when i dont know who reads this blog anyway.

but on the other hand,
i'm quite reluctant too because this blog has such a long lifespan already(kinda),
and i dont think i wanna let this go down in history just yet.

--

if you dont know me well or dont know what i've been up to after thanksgiving,
night study has started in school and i've been going for it almost everyday.
simply because i cant simply concentrate doing homework at home.
getting distracted by the computer, the tele and the kitchen.

so i was quite pleased with myself that i could finish more homework faster.
what annoys me recently is the weather that's been changing frequently,
causing a lot of us to fall ill.
at one period it's scorching hot and we need rain badly,
and now it's pelting down icicle-sized droplets and we need the rain to control when it pelts and when it doesnt.
it always pelts whenever we wanna get home. the timing always very zun.

then, it was sports day last friday.
didnt really participate in anything though.
it was my batch's first and last sports day.

went to popular @ bras basah with the usual gang after that,
daryl, eugene, xiangkang, nathan.
while others bought TYS, i bought stationery.

and i would want to try out the new stretch of circle line. (:

--

so yeah, mid-years are round the corner,
and school doesnt get any better nor relaxed.
(and when we have holidays, we rant boredom.
see how ironic and contradicting things can be?)

SHAWN -

2010-04-10T23:58:00.004+08:00

EASTER CARNIVAL cum THANKSGIVING cum
PRIZE PRESENTATION CEREMONY.

a little disppointed that it's the last thanksgiving before graduation.
it was an awesome finish to it though.
the band, the dancers, the choir,
the fringe performances,
the emcees,
the students,
not forgetting all the teachers who worked their ass off on this event.

GREAT JOB EVERYONE.

unlike last year which was a carnival held in school,
this year's carnival is held in public, as well as the thanksgiving service.
i would really want to rant and complain about how doris handles this event,
but i would rather not now.

now when we look back,
we're so proud of ourselves that we've pulled through.
kudos to everyone once again.

oh man, how i wish i could video what mdm chua said just now.
during the early afternoon she went back to school to utilise the toilet when she could use the portable ones that are just metres away from her.

asking why she does not want to use them,
(i thought it would be like the hygiene and stuff, but no.)
she literally freaked out in front of:
daryl, eugene, jeremy, wesley and i and a few others.

bascially,
she was afraid our juniors would jerk the cubicle where mdm chua is inside,
and they would eventually topple over with her stuck.
you should've seen how she reacted.
I SHOULD'VE VIDEOED IT. ahhhhh.

well anyway,
everyone had fun i guess.
i got high after the whole event.

SHAWN -
no holiday on monday. grrrrrrrr

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ADAM (090410)
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALSON.

2010-04-05T20:33:00.000+08:00

another new week, another demoralising week.

sigh.

SHAWN -

2010-04-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

it turns out that Ris Low as the new 98.7fm DJ was an april fool joke.
i had already knew it was one,
cause the director wouldnt be so blind to put such a person to ruin the reputation of the radio station. -.-
still, phew, Ris Low is not the new permanent DJ.

ANYWAY.
April Fools' Day in school was awesome and fun to some extent.
poked germin, jasmine, casandra, angel, jason, jordan,
fooled mdm eng, miss cheng and mdm chua,
startled miss johnson and miss nonis with jason. :D
and more if there are.

the only time i got tricked today was by MDM ENG.
she scammed the whole lit class by giving us a pop quiz/test to do.
and she whispered in the microphone,
"April Fooooooooooools".

i feel so kiasu today because whatever anyone says something to me i'll think twice.
oh well.

perhaps my best prank of this year was on nicole. =x
"NICOLE, YOU HAVE TO DO DEVOTION IN FRONT OF THE WHOLE SCHOOL TOMORROW."

okay, fun's over.
homework and study time.

SHAWN -

2010-03-31T20:11:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy.

5th April - Chinese Test
6th April - SS SEQ
7th April - A Maths Test
8th April - Chemistry Test
13th April - Literature Test
14th April - O Level Chem SPA Assessment 2
20th April - O Level Phy SPA Assessment 2
29th April - MYE starts
31st May - O Level Chinese Papers.

not to mention an unlimited flow of homework assignments.
i may not be blogging so often nowadays due to O Level Mode. -_-

it's gonna be a tough term for all of us.

miss johnson came into class today.
instead of starting ss, she started talking about our results so far.
she said teachers have been giving -ve feedback of our class for underperforming.
she asked what was the main reason.

"too many homework."
"no time."
"CCA, remedials."
"need time to nap/rest."
"very tired."

has anyone thought we just need a class spirit to get everyone going?

i mean seriously, where's the cammoradarie?
guess it aint gonna happen at all.
SHAWN -

2010-03-28T14:12:00.002+08:00

got back termly progress report on friday,
and it didnt turned out good as expected.
what was once my best subject,
and the only one who gave me an A on most report cards,
failed pathetically.

it was disappointing to realise that i now need help with chemistry.
i realise i have tendencies to doze off during lessons when everyone else is paying attention, though they're tired too.

--

on the bright side,
i am shortlisted to be 1 of the emcess for thanksgiving again.
-jumps up and down-
feels great to be doing it for the 3rd year running if i ever get chosen this time.
(:

the first week of the second term has only just ended.
MYEs are excatly a month from now,
and i gotta take my lessons and revisions seriously from now on.

SHAWN -

2010-03-22T19:18:00.002+08:00

today was just the beginning of the torturous term.
after repeating countless times during mrs lee's geog lesson,
"Switch to O Level Mode",
i actually made myself productive the whole day.

i didnt do my chem holiday assignment,
so i spent the whole afternoon doing it.
i copied half of them because i had to hand in today.
but i was disppointed with myself that i didnt attempt it myself.

timetables have changed and we're complaining again.
previously, we complain that we have long hours in school,
with dismissal times as late as 4.30.
(well mabye not me, but some others)
now, we feel dismissing at 2.10's too early.
monday to thursday 2.10, friday 1.35.
"TOO EARLY LA!"

too late complain, too early also complain.
so what the hell is wrong with us?!

i was initially kinda not used to the early dismissal hours (excluding remedial),
it's the same time as the lower sec,
who can still slack and slack while we shit our lives off with homework and studies.

MYE is around the corner,
and the timetable's gonna be released soon.
CHINESE O LEVEL's on 31st may.
it's already coming to the end of march.
ENGLISH PAPERS ARE ON 25th oct.
MATHS PAPERS ARE ON 26th oct onwards.
CHEM PAPERS ARE ON 29th oct.
LIT AND PHYSICS PAPERS ARE ON 1st nov.
GEOGRAPHY PAPER IS ON 2nd nov.
SOCIAL STUDIES PAPER IS ON 8th nov.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i need help on english, chinese, emaths, amaths, physics, chemistry, geography, social studies and literature.

oh wait, that's everything.

...

SHAWN -

2010-03-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

and so this so-called 'holiday' has come to an end.
ironically, this week has been passing by slower than school weeks.
mabye it's a good thing,
a week to getaway the stressful school work and life.
though im pretty looking forward to school again.
meeting friends again, and the normal routine begins.

--

i wasted thursday doing nothing at all,
staying in my room the whole day, procratinating.

on wednesday i went to school again for exco meeting that morning,
went out for lunch with f4-2 bio people
(they had lunch break during their bio-lessons-day-camp)
and went to gabriel's house in the late afternoon to concentrate on homework better.

the good old times.

i bought my NEW CRUMPLER yesterday. HAH! :D

nicole came over to my house today and we did homework too.
i guess with a good buddy i can be more productive. (:

but im still left with homework.
and it's already sunday. :/

SHAWN -

2010-03-16T23:44:00.002+08:00

hmmm.

the 5 stages of grief describes:
(1) Denial.
(2) Anger.
(3) Reasoning/Questioning.
(4) Depression.
(5) Acceptance.

just one of the many things i've learnt over the past 2 days.
had a lit workshop on our play text and it was undoubtly informative.

and just after what i see and experience today,
i'm probably at stage 3.
still unable to accept the facts that i have made for myself.

should i care less about this screwed up life i'm having?

"life's unfair, get used to it."
i'm still trying.

SHAWN -

2010-03-13T16:41:00.003+08:00

CROSS COUNTRY 2010
& GERMIN'S BIRTHDAY OUTING.

an awesome day yesterday.
it was my last cross country in GM and i will miss it dearly.
i came in 64th,
which was a great leap from last year's 83rd.
sec2 was 97th, and sec1 91st.

though tired after the run,
we still met up in the late afternoon for a movie and dinner.
in commemeration of germin's birthday. :D

watched alice in wonderland first,

germin, gladys, casandra, yuncui, pakhrin, nicole, linus, yuhung, alson, adam, jeremy, nathan, ryan, zion and me,

and we were amused by one of the characters' actions.
for me, i may want to watch it again because it's a great movie. (:
and after that we all kept mimicing the actions.
damn funny, and i shall not spoil the fun.

went for dinner at a steamboat buffet at bugis,

without nathan and with lamont, jonathan, javier.
colin, weikang and sean joined in when we were leaving. lol.

awesome food especially dory fish. :D
at the end of it celebrated germin's birthday,
with loud singing that she told us not to do it. (:

embarrassed germin,
not-so-embarrased us when we all sang together. xD

and that wraps up Term 1 of 2010.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY GERMIN !

SHAWN -
PS: watched To Kill A Mockingbird play with f4/1-3 lit students on thursday night.
interesting play and slept at 1am on that day. :D

2010-03-08T20:30:00.002+08:00

does anyone love mondays?
not only because it's the monday blues,
but before we can get ourselves relaxed after a long week,
it's the starting of another again.

then comes the sudden outburst of school work.
recently i dislike myself for wasting precious time after school and on weekends.
if i'm distracted by the laptop, i'll just shut it down.
but then comes another temptation since last sunday.

before i could start on a question,
i opened my iphone to play the apps.
(yes, i bought one. i didnt want to action it, so yeah.)
and i'm still insanely addicted to it now.

because of that machine,
i only did my english situational writing over the weekend,
apart from amaths homework and SOCIAL STUDIES.

i had an overdue ss SBQ practice that was supposed to be handed in on wednesday.
but because of tests everyday last week and the addiction,
i was 'forced' to choing finish it today, by 1pm.
but looking on the bright side,
i was glad that i finished them during lessons,
sacrificing my amaths lessons. :/

i just remembered i have another essay to complete.

so late submission of homework is the current norm.

--

i happen to come across a quote said by bill gates.
"Life is unfair, get used to it."

so,
rants aside,
and i ought to look on the brighter side of life. (:

on TUESDAY, i'm going for an audition with jean.
(WHAT AUDITION ?!) nah, i don't intend to tell the whole world, yet.

on WEDNESDAY, there's nothing.

on THURSDAY,
lit students are watching the theatrical production of to kill a mockingbird.
damn excited and look forward to it. :D

on FRIDAY,
not only it's the last day of the term,
it's the last CROSS COUNTRY the sec4s are participating.
even damn excited and looking even more forward to it. :D

guess i can end this term with a sigh of relief.

--

i would like to express my sincere gratitude to a certain someone before i end.
and that certain somneone is none other than Foo Xin,
who has relentlessly assisted the student council investiture last monday
by taking our group photos.

this is not sarcasm, if you want me to put it in layman's term,
it'll go like this:

THANKYOU YOU FOOXIN FOR TAKING PICTURES ON MONDAY. :D

SHAWN -

2010-03-04T21:41:00.002+08:00

today,
a certain someone asked me a question i had never thought he/she would ask.
i never thought the impact could be to the extent that people ask me :

"am i sad?"

at first i didnt know what he/she was talking about,
and after explaining it to me,
i realised i wasnt alone in this state of thought.

am i really that 后悔 after what's been decided?
should i be the one taking up this instead?
do i really think i deserve it much more than him?
so much for declining it,
assuming myself that i do not have the ability to take it up.

the problem with me is,
everyone has its own strength and weaknesses.
and i shouldnt let one setback hesistate my decision and stand.

so, mabye i had made another mistake again.
without realising it not only these few months,
but ever since i began this path in sec1.

i now come to realise many people are supporting me,
but i let them down miserably.
it's too late to change everything now.

i recalled the morning when the result was announced.
and after the split-second of the result,
i didnt hint a feeling of happiness nor content.
probably, i was envious.
i was envious 因为我是自找的。

SHAWN -

2010-03-01T18:02:00.002+08:00

--
basically what i did over the weekend and today.
went to ecp for picnic in the morning with jean, marcus and jason.
went for lunch at sakae sushi with isabelle, adeon and the 4 of us.
and went for bowling except marcus.

it was somewhat a break for me to recuperate from the investiture planning,
and after a tiring week,
i think i deserve a break.

today is monday again.
i cant express how depressing i am that this whole week has a test everyday.
investiture was finally over,
lots of hiccups (including nicole and us forgetting our pledges on stage)
but what's done is done.

it's time to move on and do whatever we can before we step down in april.
but somehow, a little remorseful.
mabye this isnt the time to really say it out to everyone.

to look more optimistically,
it was a great investiture anyway. haha.
the occasion seemed much informal than previous years. O:
everyone in the exco, mdm chua and miss wong have put in our very best to plan up this investiture in such a short period, and i'm glad we've all survived. :D

GREAT JOB GUYS AND CARPE DIEM !

SHAWN -

2010-02-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

i'm so super damn relieved that the week is over already,
but the end of the tunnel is not anytime soon just yet.
the big day is on monday,
and today we just had a very tiring rehearsal.

i cant bother to elaborate even further now.
my head's spinning and i am sleep-desperate.
going out with friends tomorrow,
and going out in the morning pulls me back cause it means having to wake up early.

so, the exco has endured this week,
and we'll push our limits to a higher level.
we'll do the best investiture on monday ! :D

(let me catch up on my sleep first. snooze.)

SHAWN -

2010-02-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

PS.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAKHRIN. (:

hope you like my card i did during lessons. -_-

SHAWN -

2010-02-23T21:04:00.002+08:00

the exco literally freaked out yesterday.
(well, techinically most of us.)
we were suddenly involved again with many stuff to be done ASAP.
currently it's now 2 days nearer to the investiture,
and things are going somewhat smoothly.

yesterday was chaotic because we met miss ho, again,
to propose our investiture's programme flow.
one thing i can say for sure,
she's very concerned about the students having to skip lessons.
and when we wanted students to skip,
she would hesistate and say her striking two-letter word: no.
so, no to this, no to that,
and she's actually disagreeing to whatever we, miss wong and mdm chua planned.

apparently i was seriously ticked off by her,
but it occured to me that miss wong had shared a very important message before.
subsequent 'suggestions' that she raised were a challenge to us,
until some points we told her it was fairly impossible.
"there is no such thing as impossible".

FINE. WE CAN DO IT . (:
chanting those 3 words into my head,
we were in her stuffy room and got out of school at 7pm.
followed by the choatic drama that happened at mac until about 9pm++.
eventually we were doing redundant jobs and not being efficient enough.

--

that's was yesterday.
today was quite going on as planned,
and today was slightly more relaxed than yesterday.
it's time for a break to study for my emaths test tomorrow,
and my ss essay test on thurs,
which idk if i'm still memorising essays or not,
after brain-drained for the past week.

i skipped lunch and almost skipped dinner yesterday,
and slept at 12+ and woke up at 5+ today,
to get to school early to settle stuff.
and now, my brain is tired but my heart says its not.
my hands are telling me i should get started on homework and test revision.

i'll just end this post with a thought,
that i dont intend to push it further.
because it wouldnt help me to continue serving in the council.

why shouldnt the student council be a cca instead?
most importantly,
we're working without pay, and that includes overtime.

SHAWN -

2010-02-19T23:57:00.002+08:00

i wouldnt have a proper reason to answer you if you asked me
how is it like being the vice-president.

yes,
the exco of the student council is finally formed yesterday,
with the lead of jeremy. :D
and all of us are on towards the 2nd day of the job.

stressful.
many things are do be done and decided and carried out,
especially today,
when we got into discussion for the next 4 hours after school.

the first and challenging challenge is the INSTALLTION coming up on 1st march.
with one week left to plan everything,
time is very tight and we're rushing to get everything settled,
before showing the school the student council.
prefects are a thing of a past, sad to say.
but there is no necessity to complain or be downcast anymore.
cause now, we have to move forward.

though studies and tests may get in the way,
but only if the exco believes that we can do it,
we can do it.
so why not we'll make the best out of this newly-hatched student council,
and leave a lasting impression on this pioneer batch for many years to come?
and i know we will get though this,
the great cammoraderie of this exco will always be present.

CARPE DIEM.
Jeremy, Nicole, Shawn, Eileen, Adam, Joshua,
Janson, Sheryl, Wendy, Jordan.

SHAWN -

2010-02-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

practically camped at houses all day yesterday and today.
all i did was eat and play eat and play.
believe it or not,
i just started to learn how to play blackjack yesterday. (:
now i'm addicted. LOL.

got lots of angpows. $_$

so a new year, a new start ?
i dont really want to say this since it's the new year,
but i think HE's just too intolerable.
for 2 nights straight he's been bitching childishly at small little things,
and pissing the whole family off.
sigh. :/

better to enjoy the last day of holiday before homework piles up again. :/

SHAWN -

2010-02-14T01:24:00.002+08:00

you know, i should be in a joyous mood since it's the new year.
but i have to say i'm jealous.
really really jealous, of you guys. :/

SHAWN -

2010-02-14T00:04:00.001+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR !
HAPPY VALENTINES !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANNNNNNNNNNNNNN !

SHAWN -

2010-02-11T23:37:00.002+08:00

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

another week is coming to an end !
CNY and total defence celebrations tomorrow.
additionally, it's valentines day,
and jean's and calvin's birthday. O:

speaking of calvin,
today was the last outing with him, together with fooxin.
as usual he was horny and irritating,
so fooxin and i bought a card for him that has the definition of horny on the front.
had dinner at ajisen!
and went to cold storage to buy yu sheng for tomorrow's lou hei for councillors. :D

will anticipate for another busy week next monday.
interviewing sec2s for new student councillors,
and something else which i may not reveal it so soon. xD

somehow looking forward yet dreading the 5 day holiday !

SHAWN -

2010-02-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

it seems that i had almost forgotten to post.

well, last week's last week,
and this week's this week.
many things to look forward towards friday.

other than having 4 tests this week,
(had geog test today and couldnt finish the paper)
CNY WEEK IS COMING.
it's holiday all the way to tuesday! muahahaha.

and also,
i went running with a bunch of people today,
jean, marcus, jason, isabelle and iman.
i hope this normal routine we intended to do will last long. :D
i should get more active uh i guess.

and on thursday,
i'm gonna have dinner with calvin and fooxin.
calvin's leaving for university at australia on valentines.

friday's CNY celebration,
and i do hope the graduating student councillors can lao yu sheng for the last time.

will blog again if i have the time.
i havent started on today's homework.
neither is weekend homework.
(:

SHAWN -

2010-02-02T17:54:00.002+08:00

the first month of the new year seemed to be slow and fast at the same time.
so many things happened in just the first few weeks of school,
mostly student council and of course, school and homework.

a day's work is never done,
and the next day it accumulates again.
a new day welcomes new challenges and obstacles.

meanwhile,
had interview with miss ho yesterday with the few others regarding presidency.
uh... i dont really wanna be the president, period.
long story and i dont think i wanna talk about it yet.
i'm just waiting for the results first.

elbow is recovering,
but i'll have to make another visit to the chinese doctor tmr.
i just hope i would not not straighten my elbow forever.

oh well,
i need to push myself for homework now.

SHAWN -

2010-01-31T00:23:00.003+08:00

some sec3s are starting to go against the student leaders.
see, how would i know all these without facebook.
it's such a handy invention. (:

someone shouted that "SL's are cbs."
come on, drop the abbreviations and just say the two words loudly.
dont be a chicken and use "SL" to prevent yourself from getting into trouble.

and another one was hating the way why we had to "submit to authority".
and moreover, he/she is somewhat counted as a student leader some more.

sigh.
these two shoutouts are actually excatly what we would be thinking.
but they failed to look at the other side of the story.
if there aint any submission to authority,
will leadership exist?
and leaders decide what's best for its people,
and some may just dont like it and hate their leader.

so how is it possible to satisfy everyone?

these people dont have a clue of what we've been experiencing through.
it's just excatly the same between the leaders and teachers.
yesterday's meeting with miss wong really switched my mindset for once.

which is why i've decided to take the challenge of being interviewed by miss ho.
monday. after school. after remedial. principal's office.
though i would need to prepare though, which i havent.

didnt have much the chance of doing today due to flag day.

flag day...
daryl, eugene, nathan and jeremy were all on vball training.
timothy is on bb training.
i told xiangkang to go with his classmates instead.
i eventually was stuck with a totally random group of people.
and finally with some of my classmates.
i was pathetic all day, and i didnt have the high spirits.

life aint easy, we just have to live through it. right?
SHAWN -

2010-01-30T00:04:00.008+08:00

"Submission to Authority".

these 3 words would probably be etched in my mind when i leave the school.
these 3 words were powerful.
these 3 words made an impact to me today and stamped a deep impression.

those 3 words were written by Miss Wong, FYI the current mistress of the council.

eileen, nicole, jeremy, jordan, adam and i had a meeting with her after school.
rushing down after remedial, it took about 2 hours or so.
discussing about the student council,
many personal feelings were poured out,
and we 'lodged' complaints to miss wong through the meeting.

then she wrote those 3 words on the whiteboard.

i had found out that some, if not most of my accusations towards him were wrong.
he did fought for us, the prefects, to stay as prefects.
but no, SHE did not want prefects, instead she wanted the student council.
and that was why he had been the front runner of everything.
all the sai kang stuff and all the blood we shed and the shit we gone through,
it was her vision for the school.

i really thank and appreciate Miss Wong for today's session.
whatever the sharing she had today was all thought provoking and reflective.
many many questions that needed to be answered were answered.
and ultimately, the 3 words were the one that says it all.

so what we learnt in ss is to "anticipate change and stay relevant",
but people do not find change as a welcoming thing.
one problem's for sure, that this whole student council thing,
was all rushed, "like a premature baby".
but once the president and vice-presidents are elected,
the structure can be decided,
manpower will be more organised,
and efficiency would be improved.

so why not we just finish off this final lap,
though it may seem difficult and stressful?
unhappy with changes, complain later.
proof ourselves first that we want certain things to be put back in place.
bearing in mind, we still have to submit to authority, no?

SHAWN -

2010-01-28T20:40:00.003+08:00

it really sucks to be consistently being exposed to some things.
things that make me remember my past actions and the wrong decisions i've made.

i still can remember clearly what i told myself before i made a decision that affected my life in GM greatly.
"I will never regret it. Better to quit or I'll suffer even more."

that was 2 years ago.
but now?
i regretted.
i really regretted why i did that in the first place.
and even though i did that, i would have another chance to redeem myself.
but no, i took the easy way out.
by it taking me in, not me taking it.

and thus,
from then onwards i stuck on to that until now.
friends and teachers ask me that particular question once in awhile.
either i'll hesitate and answer them,
or pretend not to listen,
or leave them in question.

this week was the one that made me remember everything again that i wanna put behind.
too late to amend the mistake i made anymore.

SHAWN -
PS: to friends who think i "zuo bo" one,
i didnt want to be "zuo bo".
i really wanna get myself active and enthu in the school.
really, witnessing all the special events,
but because of a damn stupid move i make,
you see me in such a prominent role in the student council,
but when you see me in a different light,
"oh... okay."

2010-01-25T22:12:00.004+08:00

went to the chinese physician today.
western medication doesnt work for sprains,
so i had an ~~excrutiating~~ exhilarating time.

not really that pain la,
mainly bearable ones but some really CMI.

apart from the fact that all the staff are chinese nationals,
i am bandaged even more now,
and today's treatment to "relocate" my points
was unsuccessful cause my elbow's too swollen.

2 people had to pull my arm in an attempt to straighten it.

FML.

and i have to go back tomorrow,
and mabye the next day,
and mabye the next day.
oh well, i just want my elbow to be healed soon.
somehow i can agree on this that chinese treatment is better.

feel like such a weakling today in school :/
i had to use only my right hard while fixing the furni for the council room.

ending here.
couldnt elaborate more due to homework needed to be done,
and tests to be studied,
and hand needs to be rested.

SHAWN -
PS: davao trip presentation was all right today !
made my day when the visa dances were shown. LOL

2010-01-22T19:24:00.002+08:00

so just as i thought the weekends are here for me
to rest after yet another tiring week of school,
but unfortunately,
somehow i fell down on the hard concrete ISH floor during PE today.
my class were supposed to be playing soccer,
but because of the rain,
we were doing high-jump and baton passing.

baton passing was the last part of the lesson,
and the practice round i was the 3rd runner, gabriel was 2nd.
he pushed me unintentionally after passing me the baton, and i lost my balance.

-piak-
everyone started crowding around me.
initially it was unbearable.
my left elbow that is, and mdm cheng sent me to the general office to inform my mum.

i just wanna thank everyone for your concern,
and i'm sorry that i made all of you worried,
and f4/1's pe lesson ending so dramatically.

THANKS FOR YOUR CONCERN !

Gabriel, Nick, Shanice, Daryl, Eugene, Eileen, Jean, Zhaorong, Nicole, Pakhrin,
Mdm Cheng, Miss Wong, Mr Ng, Mdm Chua, Mrs Lee, Miss Johnson, Mdm Eng.

i pissed mr lee off ?!
i was sitting at the general office while the teachers mentioned above came in,
and saw me with mixed reactions.
When a teacher i know of comes in,
I'll chirpily greet them and see their reactions when they see me.
mr lee was like lamenting why am i in such a state.

thankfully,
the x-ray showed no signs of dislocation or any hairline crack,
so i'm like suffering from a bad sprain.
as i type i'm like excersing my injured left hand.
it's totally weak now, i cant even hold a water bottle !

anyway,
i hope nothing serious will happen soon,
and speedy recovery please !

the doctor was like asking me how many days of mc do i want.
professionalism doubted.
i told him i didnt want any.

SEC4 ALREADY LEH.
and i felt it was the end of the world when i missed lessons today.
thankfully again lessons were only until 12+. (:

my left hand is tired of typing already. haha.
SHAWN -

2010-01-20T19:20:00.003+08:00

somehow i enjoyed today alot.
had the most fun in physics, laughing all the way and disturbing miss nonis. O:
as well as the studying session in the ~~prefects~~ student council room.
lessons ended at 4.30 today.
and late day's tomorrow, when assembly starts at 8.25.

anyway, today i've learnt to be more wary of what i post on fb.
while walking back to class a teacher approached me,
and somewhat ticked me off about posting that the current timetable's screwed because my class doesnt have a lunch period on thursdays.
she told me not to say it such a bad way that may reflect the school's reputation.
but eventually i told her i'll just delete it.

seriously, i dont have a lunch period on thursday.
haha, i will see how we'll die midway during lessons.

got to complete an ss essay,
and revise for chem test tmr.
jiayou!

SHAWN -
btw,
it's the 500th POST ! xD

2010-01-16T21:22:00.002+08:00

most of us havent been excatly going through a great end-of-the-week.

first it was yesterday,
where we (the sec4s especially) are given yet another big task to do.
that is the davao presentation to the school next next monday.
not going to elaborate because i dont wanna think of it just yet.

and today's the sec1 meet the parents and the CCA fair.
yet another screwed event.

and supposedly we're going to clean up the student council room,
which i thought it would cheer myself up from yesterday,
but someone just had to spoil the fun.
we were "chased" out of the school.
instead we went to ikea to see what was there to buy.

now the sec4s are full of remedials and lessons.
where got time left to do davao presentation?
where got time left to renovate the room?

honestly, it's fucking irritating that we dont have time for ourselves.
from a latest dismissal we could have at 2.25pm to 4.30pm excluding remedial.
and i have many other 'new' complaints.
but sigh, im tired already. -.-

SHAWN -

2010-01-13T21:51:00.003+08:00

the pressure builds up slowly daily.
homework starts coming in,
test dates streaming in,
and many new initiatives have been put in place this year so far.

meanwhile,
still stuck in the council,
getting it settled down and everything,
(which apparently seems a mammoth task to settle)
but myself and a few others wanna get the student council room "renovated",
so that we can study better in there.

i know i shouldnt be online for too long everyday anymore.
but i still cant get into the mugging mode.
in school,
i'm all into books and studies.
and once the bell rings,
i switch off.

have been in school for 12 hours almost everyday now.
and it's only january.

- BUT I WILL SURVIVE THIS.
mark my words.

SHAWN -

2010-01-11T19:49:00.002+08:00

today's o level results somewhat gave me a little boost for my motivation to start studying for MY o levels.

it's like about 5 months to my chinese,
and 10 months to the rest of the papers.
seems long,
but time will be gone in a jiffy before i know it.
and the motivation today still wasnt enough.

today was even quite an emotional moment for me (i didnt cry la.)
shuting got her results,
and when she opened the letter of judgement,
she broke down and cried for like the next 10mins.

initially didnt know what to do, like seriously.
i dont know how to comfort or encourage her,
but luckily her cell group leader was there,
so shuting found a shoulder to lean on for a brief moment.

fooxin wanted some time to calm herself down,
so i only got to know her results like 4 hours later. -.-

but all in all,
what will be my downfall this time next year would be more crucial.
after witnessing the highs and lows of the results today,
i wonder how will it be like sitting in a spot where i'm taking my results instead.
my 2 seniors did like very good already.
and i'm afraid i wouldnt do as well as them. :/
and also seeing how my current results are like,
i can forget about going into a JC.

poly isnt that bad either,
but i would need to make sure what future will lie ahead for me.
if i take a wrong step to a course in poly that i dislike,
then i'm doomed for life.

mass communication.
am i really that interested in the tv industry?
will i be fully devoted into the course?
most importantly,
did i make the right choice?

after all,
it's results first before i can really plan ahead.
so why not i just keep this laptop of mine into the storeroom now,
and take it out again after o levels?

i heard some of my friends who werent allowed to use the computer ANYMORE,
until the end of o levels.
unfortunately, if i was him/her,
just give me a few days and i'll die of desperation.

so i guess the most important thing for me now is to manage my time well.
i dont really know when the sec4s can step down from the student council.
i really wish it could be now or tomorrow.
it's about time the sec3s to take over, really.

probably i did something today that i thought it was right.
spilling the beans to him, i guess it's good to let him know about it.
ultimately, for the sake of my studies in this final lap.

so why not i start mugging now?
what's been stopping me from breaking out my slacking habit?
do i feel that it's too early?

- "it's never too early."

SHAWN -

2010-01-09T22:35:00.002+08:00

this was what i got after 4 poly visits today.
...except my cat, she's just sleeping. :D
i overslept today,
so i made shuting wait for me about an hour. :/

here's the brief amazing race we had today.
we met at city hall before going for sing poly at dover.
took bus to ngee ann poly,
and took free shuttle bus back to clementi mrt.
then we took the train all the way to yio chu kang,
which took us about an hour to travel to nanyang poly.
we skipped republic poly at woodlands cause we didnt had time.
then we choinged to temasek poly by taxi.
and finally went to tampines mall and had lunch/dinner.

all in 4 hours.

we basically visited and took whatever stuff/goodie bags there are.
didnt excatly have the time to talk to the people. -.-
i think travelling time took longer then the time we spent in the open houses.

so that's today.
i have yet to start on my homework.
and holiday homework to be done and submitted on monday!
i really do need to start being hardworking now. -.-

and O LEVEL RESULTS ARE ON MONDAY TOO!
my batch's gonna sit in and witness the results, the tears of joy and disappointment.
all the best to them!

SHAWN -

2010-01-08T22:42:00.004+08:00

i think i have finally decided temporarily what course i'll take,
should i get into poly after my Os.

and that's
media studies in management,
communications and media management,
media and communcation,
and mass communication.

basically it's mass comm.
the different polys just rephrase the way to say it.
i didnt bother to search up republic poly's.
it's damn far from here.

but to get into mass comm,
my ang moh needs to be damn good,
like at least a B3.
and i got a B4 for my EOYs last year,
and i NEVER got even an A2 for my english.
seems that if i'm really determined to get into mass comm, i need to buck up.

with the help of some inspiration of high achievers,
which were the facilitators of my day camp which ended today.
they were mainly touching on choosing careers,
choosing them based on our personality types,
and scoring well in the Os by effective memorising and note-taking.
it was informative and useful in general.
but i still need that pinch of motivation for me to study NOW.

am still considering which jc to go too.
when all else fails, i still have my mass comm. LOL.
but definitely not acjc anymore.
though the affiliation means 2 points reduction seems attractive,
but heard so many 'stuff' until i'd better drop my idea of going in there anymore.

--
anyway,
i finally get to have a proper outing with my once study group! :D
went to hk cafe at plaza sing to have dinner,
with shuting, ailing and xiangkang.

going to poly open houses tmr !

SHAWN -

2010-01-06T19:52:00.004+08:00

school is fine and dandy SO FAR.
today, tomorrow and friday,
the whole school's on camp!

sec2s and sec3s are like somewhere else in singapore,
while the sec1s are stuck in school.
and sec4/5s?

not only we're only having a day camp,
ALL OF US ARE PANICKING ABOUT TOMORROW.
NEED TO WEAR FORMAL ATTIRE FOR LUNCH.

no skinny jeans and school shoes allowed. -.-
and i tried on wearing 'formally' just now.
seriously need to alter my only pair of office pants.
(i bought that for the sec1 registration 3 years ago,
but i realised we had to wear the upper sec long pants instead.
post is somewhere in the archives.)

some people are even doing last-minute shopping as i speak.
and SOME PEOPLE,
planning to wear school uniform for the luncheon at marriott hotel.

another thing is,
we hafta wear the formal wear to school early in the morning.
which first, this is singapore, when the weather is bloody hot.
second, wearing formal wear in the morning is very uncommon,
and walking to school's gonna attract many attention of the public. LOL.

sianned.
FYI to those who still dont know what i'm talking about,
we're gonna FINE DINE at marriott hotel tomorrow afternoon.
where we eat like, gentlemen and ladies?
i shall anticipate of what's gonna happen tmr.

SHAWN -
&i couldnt get myself to get into the homework routine.